Senior Software engineer

This was a post I had typed ages ago.... I have not altered it one bit.. and left it as is in the end.. :)


Yes.. thats me.. i got promoted.. it was a thursday afternoon..June 28th to be precise.. from almost one week.. the gossips about the impending promotions were doing the rounds.. i was tipped to be one of the people to be promoted.. but stupid pratyush dissapointed my hopes saying that Ajay had told him that there was no list from HMI this time.. A list is nothing but the recommendation of the manager given to the HR that these ppl deserve promotions.. and yes coming back to the thursday afternoon.. ajay came to the desk and called me.. dont even know wat he said exactly.. as I was listening to music.. Ravichandran Hits to be precise again.. and then he went to the other cubicles.. when i took out my ear phones and stood up i saw raghava, ashoke and charith getting up... then i think i saw akki getting up as well.. When i saw the combination of the ppl.. i knew i was promoted.. i wanted to jump.. yes.. really.. now in the hindsight it does not seem really big.. but at that moment it was.. we all including raghs and siva R went to a cabin .. i guess the second one from our test environment.. and ajay said we were all performing very badly and that was the reason he summoned all of us.. we all dint say nething.. i made a staright face trying to hide my obvious joy.. n ashoke started smiling.. ajay asked "y r u smiling ashok?" ashoke said "i am finding it funny".. raghava said if we have performed badly we get immediate feedback from the leads.. ajay said yes leads do give feedback.. but when it goes below a certain level, thats where i step in" .. n i said " bad is certainly not the comment i wud expect".. then he smiled and said "all of you have been promoted" .. i was the only woman in the room .. n yes i was beaming.. :).. aja y said some nice things about all of us.. he praised

Update on Marriage..

We spoke on 18th June, yeah the Sunil guy.. n after that he has not come online.. i mailed him asking y he's not online.. n yes there's no reply.. its 30th june and it is as good as it is over.. tonite i will mail him.. will not tell dad about it.. he says ignore n dont want to.. i wanna finish it off.. ok thats it.. i was so desperate for a few days.. but now i am not.. some good things happened after that... so i'm much better now... ok.. this was jus the update.. im writing one more post.. tata :)

Marriage

I can make a movie out of things happening in my life.. a typical rondhu one at that.. but i am not exactly feeling that way.. though I am supposed to.. Maybe being thick skinned is not that bad after all..
wen ppl like me the jaathaka doesnt match.. n wen they dont the bloody jaathaka matches.. now i've got a new bakra.. it seems he's not interested in jathaka.. i really appreciate that.. n he says his parents also support his stand.. thats good :) .. i dont know whether i'll marry him or not but i appreciate his bold stand.. n the way he had written his first mail to me.. for the record.. his name is Sunil.. stays in arizona.. n dont know ne thing else apart from these.. there's one more guy to whom i may send the jathaka.. lets c wat happens.. my bday is on tuesday.. i think it will b my last b'day as a spinster..really dont kno wat diff its gonna make .. neways will update wt happened on the marriage front wen some thing really happens.. until then i'll keep dreaming .. :)

Me

Through out my life I have been looking down upon ppl who are in Love.. its the same even now.. i have always been some sort of a loner inside. I had never felt the need for a companion so far. my family i.e my parents, my cousins and my friends have made my life feel so full that i never felt the need for LOVE, of a man (or a boy) at all.. but its not the same nowadays.. i'm not complaining that ppl r not giving me time.. they are.. but some times i feel so damn lonely and frustrated.. i cant even express it in words.. i have built such huge walls around myself that no one can ever come close to me.. i have not got the ability to express myself.. my feelings properly to anybody.. not that i dont know how to talk.. to the world i am a sweet talker .. but my inner most feelings are hidden from the whole world.. its not that i want to pour it out n all.. its jus that some times i feel very lonely and there is no one i can call and talk.. no i cant even call Pavi.. i dont feel that close to her ne more.. for obvious reasons.. but i jus cant call her.. all the other friends i can have a chat wid stay abroad.. so wat do i do.. so i sit n tell stories to myself.. so i feel like running away.. maybe u'll understand wat i am going thro if u read this post completely.. nothing makes sense.. n yes u come to kno a lot... i dont kno maybe i'll b fine in some time .. i'll pray for that..

MBA sucks!!!

i dont remember wat made me take it up.. but one thing i kno is that it sucks or rather i suck at it.. or maybe not.. i gave the title before i left for the management accounting paper .. now i am not soo bitter about it.. ok lemme give an account of how i am doing. first paper PPM(i dont hv the patience to type the full form) , did very very well. Then was OB.. dint do well.. may clear.. then BC .. will clear, then ME, may or may NOT.. then came the baap of all bouncers MA.. the one that i had today.. will DEFINITELY flunk.. then the last straw in my tomb.. Business Law.. lets c how that goes..

PPM - Prinicples and Practices of Mgmt
OB - Organisational Behaviour
BC - Business Comm
ME - Managerial Economics
MA - Management Accounting
BL - Business Law

Yeah Yeah!!!

Im writing this reaallllly long after the match.. so most of the details are omitted.. the next day was the day man!! I was on fire.. maybe writing here made the difference.. the matches were about to start.. n every one was telling me play hard and all that stuff.. bcoz i sucked on the previos day.. our first match started and i was sent earlier as a precaution(so that we dont have any other nail biting climaxes).. n u kno wat i top scored.. i had this wired style of jumping wen i was throwing the arrow, but that really worked.. :) .. i was soo happy, the second match siva played very well.. n we won that too.. n I played quite well too.. i scored more than the last game.. but the last game none of us played well.. ranjana had not played well in the earlier two games .. but she played well in the last game.. but we lost that game.. n that too by "2" points.. very very unlucky there.. jus two points.. par kya kare.. but the good part was that i played much better.. n we made it till the semi finals.... there is one more very very important day in my life, i'll write bout that in the next blog ..

Dart Board!!

Believe it or not.. Our team is called chuchers!! and yes I am the most pathetic player in the team!! i swear i am bad!! Well lets get into the statistics.. Our team captain is Prashant. Members are Pradeep, Shiva, Charith, Ranjana and I. U r supposed to stand behind a line and throw the pencil-like thing onto the dart board. Simple .. u may say.. but its not.. ask me ..One player is gets 5 tries for one game. And we played two games and I got one pencil on the dart board each game :( .. In the first game we played against some Info- Shooters or some crap, our team score was 254, prashant himself scored 102(phew)!! captain's knock. We won it.. Next was against some team.. There was a nail biting climax. When my turn came, our team was supposed to score 10 points and me the stupid scored three n v lost :( .. but wt actually happnd was that we already had won during Ranjana's turn. he he he .. I AM in the rite team :) .. Neways tomorrow is a new day and I promise to try my best, wt with the practice at home(I am trying to throw a pen to a point on the wall.. n I'm very very good at that).. Ok cya.. Will update the result t'rrow :)